Chris stopped by to give my dad his CD back. We talked for a while, but I felt like I was babbling. Seeing him made me feel kinda sad, since he's going back to Cal Poly for a couple weeks, then moving up there for the school year. It's sad we can't hang out more. I kinda feel left behind, in a way. I think I'm ready to go to college myself. I don't think he knows how much I'm going to miss him. He's given me a lot of support lately and really helped me get through some crappy stuff (Poetically put, I know). Hopefully I can still talk to him online. I would hate it if we stopped talking. Last year we hung out at camp, then never really talked during the school year. I don't want that to happen again. He makes me feel safe and that I'm worth something. I'm worth a lot. He helps me to see that.

I'm drinking sweet Chai tea. It's very comforting and warm. It warms me up inside, because even though I'm not physically cold, I get mentally cold sometimes. Drinking Chai tea warms up my soul and makes me smile.

Tomorrow marks the last full week of summer. Today is my lazy day. Tomorrow I plan to finish most of my summer homework.

Please give me the strength to get through this school year. To do well in my classes, with my college applications, with my friends, and with my enemies. May I have the courage to challenge myself and overcome obstacles. Help me to be a better, stronger person through Your guidance.

On Tuesday and Thursday I plan to play tennis in the morning as usual, but I'm going to have to push myself a lot harder. The following week mandatory practice begins and then tryouts. I have to prove myself this year, especially since it is my last year. This school year I'm going to have to push myself more than I ever have. In a way I'm glad, because maybe it'll force me to become more confident and stop me from dwelling on unpleasant things I cannot change.

Time to crash in front of the TV, almost falling asleep.

Mahal kita.