School orientation was today. I always like seeing everyone while waiting in lines to turn in money and get pictures taken. It's so strange to be senior. It seems like I'd feel like I'm coming to the end of something, but I don't feel that way. I'm coming to the end of my public schooling. I've been in a school system since I was two years old. I've reached the end of it now and suddenly see my life looming ahead of me. I know I'm going to continue my education after this, but it will be by my choice. I willgo to a school I've chosen and I will study subjects I'm genuinely interested in. I don't feel like I'm coming to the end of anything; I feel like I'm approaching the beginning of my life. It's strange to be senior and watch the incoming freshmen. I talk to graduated seniors all the time and have spent time with many of them this summer. I don't feel as much a part of my high school anymore, because many the amazing people that became my friends there have become my friends outside of school. I'm not best friends with my close friends because we go to the same school. It used to be that way. I was friends with people, because they went to my school. Now I'm friends with people who no longer go to my school and with friends that I see outside of school . It makes me feel independant and secure in my life.
That last paragraph was probably pretty confusing, but at least I understand it.
I also have a lot of friends that I only see at school. They're close friends of mine, but I've never known them well enough to know outside of school. It was great to see a lot of those people. Part of me had been dreading going back to school, because by the end of last year I felt very isolated and unsure of myself. It was wonderful to talk to people who were happy to see me. So many of my girl-friends had changed their hair. They all looked so pretty. I like telling people they look nice after not seeing them for a while. I like that slightly surprised, self-concious smile that I get in return.